Why?

I always need a why. That's a new pattern I've learned I have. Everything has to have a reason or explanation. It's most likely why my emotions run so deep, and how I pick people apart and learn everything about them I can. There has to be a reason as to why the sky is blue, or why people are the way they are. Why my system at work is set up the way it is, why people lie, why we need oxygen. If I do not have a why, I simply cannot wrap my head around it. Take religion for instance. I see no proof, no why, no how. None of it logically makes any sense. I've also realized some people think I'm self-centered when I question the whys of everything similar to how a toddler would. I'm not even trying to be vain or rude; I am just gorgeously curious. Maybe someone's why will teach me a lesson I've been missing, or something that might save my life someday, or a trick that saves me time. Who knows! And you know what, sometimes the why can just be "Because I fucking want to!" or "Because I don't fucking want to!" That's the thing, I just need a why.